My stay in Arizona was much needed. I enjoyed spending time and getting to know my aunt and uncle and the quiet, alone time it gave me. My aunt and uncle live about 1 hour and 15 minutes north of Phoenix and there wasn't much happening where they live. The closest hookah lounge was in Phoenix so I didn't go to often. If you know me, you know I love me some hookah. I felt alone and isolated during this time but in a good way, like my soul/spirit needed it. I did a lot of reading, journaling, meditating, praying, crying, and walking. I didn't feel so much as lost but feeling like I was being molded for what was next in my journey. I was reading books about money, finances, personal freedom, mindset shifts and self-belief. Journaling about how I felt in the present but also journaling about how I wanted to feel in the future. Truly believing that my current situation wasn't going to be my future situation and knowing things were going to happen fast and suddenly. I just needed to remain faithful and trust God.
[entry begins] Journal entry: Sunday. July 16, 2023
Grateful. Getting ready for my drive to Houston! Friday (7/20) I will be in my apartment. So looking forward to this new chapter in life. The way things lined up after I left California. Wow, wow, wow!
BIG FAITH at work and activated.
Sun. April 2, 2023 - go to AZ with Cali to house sit/stay with my aunt and uncle
Sat. April 22, 2023 - My send off party at Legacy
Wed. May 3, 2023 - CHES interview
Wed. May 10, 2023 - Officially living in AZ
Wed. May 31, 2023 - CHES 2nd interview
Thurs. June 6, 2023 - Offered & accepted CHES position
Thurs. June 22, 2023 - Goes to Houston for the 1st time
Mon. June 26, 2023 - First day at the new job
Fri. July 14, 2023 - Signed lease to new apartment in Houston
Thurs. July 20, 2023 - Drives to Houston with Cali
Fri. July 21, 2023 - Moves into new apartment
Thank God for everything! A literal faithwalk - Having BIG, BIG FAITH! - my spiritual gift. Jehovah Jireh. Continue to use me, Lord. I want to show/tell people how great you are. [entry ends]
It just didn't make sense how everything flowed and happened so smoothly. My current circumstances/ reality didn't warrant this - there was no indication that this could or should happen. I had no money, never been to Houston, never lived by myself, and had no real plan whatsoever. I remember everyone asking me, what are going to do, what's your plan if you don't find a job, how long do you plan to stay in Arizona, why did you leave California? You should have stayed in California, etc. And I kept responding: honestly, I'm really not sure but I know everything will work out. And it did. That's what BIG FAITH is for me: having faith in God that EVERYTHING IS going to work out AND truly believing that it will work out for my good. The belief part is important. I truly believed even though I couldn't see it in my present reality that God would make a way.
I would go on long morning or evening walks and listen to podcasts or walk silently and focus on being present in the moment. I would get a hot veggie sub from Firehouse Subs, then go to a nearby park and sit in the shade on my blanket, write in my journal or watch an inspirational video on Youtube or a sermon. It was the most peace I had felt in a while. I couldn't tell you what the next few months looked like but my spirit/soul was at peace. It was a peace I had never felt before. During this time, I wanted to worry and be in control of every little thing in my life but all I kept hearing God say is: Do you trust me? I gave it all to God, my finances, my career, my location, my relationships, but most importantly my heart, my mind, and my spirit.
Also during this time, the Winning Season candle collection was birthed. The collection consists of 3 candles called: trust, vision and faith. Trust: It's within you to succeed. Trust yourself; Vision: Out of reach but not out of sight; Faith: It's okay if you can't see it. Have faith everything works out for your good. Despite what my current circumstance suggested, I knew it was a winning season and I had faith, trust and vision to guide me. This collections represents having light in a dark tunnel. This season is still being written and I'm excited to see what all is in store.
Check out the collection: treasuressparked.com
I was on Instagram and happen to come across a post and the caption was: Oprah said to Tyler Perry in a phone conversation - I didn't know the future but I knew who held the future and I knew that where I was, wasn't where I would stay....OMG I felt that in my soul when I read that and I wrote that exact thing down in my journal on 6/20/2023. Still trusting him and continuing to have BIG FAITH.
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Food for thought: "What you focus on will grow bigger in your life. Focus on good, and joy, and love and watch what happens. - Tyler Perry
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