Hey fam! It's been a while, I have been getting adjusted to life in LA, working, being a dog mom, and living life. It's going pretty well and I'm grateful for that. I have been going to different events to meet people but it's hard making new friends at this stage in life. Most people have their friend tribe and I have a friend tribe too but none of them are in California. There's nothing like having one or two close friends in your immediate surroundings and I believe my California tribe will come soon. In the meantime, I started the 75 Hard Challenge created by Andy Frisella which is a mental toughness program that will help build mental discipline in all areas of your life. For 75 consecutive days, I have to do the following tasks everyday: follow a diet, complete two 45-minute workouts (one workout must be outdoors), take a progress picture, drink 1 galloon of water, read 10 pages of a book, and no alcohol or cheat meals. Doesn't sound to challenging right?! Wrong! It's the 2 workouts and a galloon of water a day for me. (lol) Today is day 4 of the challenge and I'm feeling good. Thank goodness for my accountability partners, my sister and her boyfriend, who are also doing the challenge. We are going to get it done! (inserts muscle emoji)
Something that has been on my mind is the fact that I am really a dog mom. I always wanted to have my own dog, I just didn't think it would be so soon. Cali Boog came into my life the end of July 2021 when I found her tied to a bench at a park back home in Jersey. I had been at the park for over 2 hours and no one came to check on her so I asked who's dog is that and people said she had been at the park for a day or so now. Supposedly animal control was called to pick her up but never came so I decided to take her home. She was so cute and friendly. I took her to the vet to see if she had a microchip in her but she didn't. I wasn't trying to steal anyone's dog so I took her back to the park the next day to ask around if anyone knew her owner. Everyone said she had been tied up for about a day or so and that she was purposely left at the park. I guess I was her angel and she was my angel too. I wasn't fully ready to commit to taking care of her so I gave her to my friend. I told my friend if for whatever reason, you can no longer care for her to let me know and I will take care of her permanently. After two months, she was back with me full-time. I figured I'm pretty sure there is a reason she came back to me. Cali has helped me grow, mature and was a catalyst to me moving out on my own. Having a dog is not easy but I'm so glad to be her guardian. Cali is the sweetest, friendliest, most playful pup ever. (of course that's me being bias LOL) But it was a match made in heaven. I couldn't ask for a better companion, my little love.
Speaking of love, Valentine's Day was last month and I didn't have a lover to celebrate with. However I did spend some time thinking about my past partners and it was actually pretty insightful and freeing in a way. So my most recent partner and I were never exclusively together, the most accurate title would be friends with benefits. Our intentions started out good but then everything went left after a party I had at my house. (Basically we were both drunk and high and he said a lot of not-so-nice things about me to my mom. He got kicked out the party and banned from coming to my house again). But I still continued to see him on and off for the next three years. We both admitted that we were toxic for each other but said fuck it, let's roll with it until the wheels fall off. In the end, the relationship faded out on its own which was definitely for the better. We did not bring out the best in each other. During this time, I was selfish and self-seeking and I can admit that. And today I realize how much I've grown since then.
Looking back on everything, I wish nothing but happiness, joy and peace for all my ex-partners. I believe we all serve a purpose for each other and while I experienced the same lesson from different people, the situations served their purpose. And finally being able to learn the lesson the first time to avoid heartache, heartbreak, and other unintended consequences. It's taken a couple tries to get this clarity but better late than never. LOL! …okay where was I going with this? Self-love, yes, self-love is the best love. Pastor Dharius Daniels said it best, "Your ability to move forward is based on your decision not to go backwards. The only reason to look back is to learn." This can apply to anything in life: relationships, career, financial choices, your business, etc. This year I am adding value to my life by doing things differently than past years. Let's elevate!
Scribbles Pooh <3